Showing posts with label It is The Heart Talking. Show all posts
Showing posts with label It is The Heart Talking. Show all posts

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Ini masih bukan kawasan impianku

kini, aku berada di kawasan yang cantik namun tegang
dikelumpuk sahabat2 yang baik namun sungguh renggang
mengembleng tenaga dan perhatian masing2 kearah yang mendatang
tanpa merasakan berhak untuk merasa senang lenang bersuka sekarang

ya, segalanya dipandang diukur pada pencapaian,
masing2 memandang hormat seseorang itu pada jawatan dan keterampilan,
mahupun kepandaian dalam mengeluar bicarakan ayat2 keagamaan
namun tak mengapa, Allah mengetahui apa yang ada di dalam hati kalian

penuh, sungguh sesak sempit hakim dikawasan ku kini
masing2 berusaha sebaik mungkin untuk memperbaiki diri sendiri
tanpa henti2 melatih diri memboikot melabel insan2 yang 'minoriti'
yang mendiamkan diri masih mahu mengenal diri untuk menggilap peribadi

sekarang apalah gunanya menyesali lagi tanpa merancang penyelesaian
membuang masa bersedihan penuh ketidakpuasan ditambah rintihan
menjaja keburukan dengan harapan dapat kembali ke kawazan pangkuan
yang dulu menjadi tempat pembinaan diri disisi kejujuran teman2

namun, kemuncak kejahilan diri tak tertanggung tak dapat dikesal lagi
selalu menguntumkan perhatian dan memberikan lafaz dikala sunyi
kepada epal2 yang jauh diatas, demi mengharapakn ia gugur tak semula jadi
hingga lafaz2 itu menyebabkan mereka menjauhkan diri sambil membenci

dahulu, kita saling menjadi rujukan rakan seperjuangan
dimana daya tumpuan tak terusik dengan perkara2 sampingan
hati ketika itu sentiasa resah kehausan ilmu, buku acapkali berdampingan
kini bertukar dengan kebosanan ilmu, hiburan sentiasa dititikberatkan

'pengaruh rakan sebaya'
itulah perkataan yang pernah ku fikir tidak akan terpedaya
namun kini ku kehilangan kecurian ketenangan hakiki kepada Nya
hilang prinsip diri, selesa mengikut telunjuk, mengejar penghargaan Sia2




Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Old is Gold





I don't know why,
It seems remembering past things
Much more pleasing to me
Compare to current things

These things such as songs,
Past memories, past schools,
Past properties, past friends
Past study method, hence past exam results,


Past songs are so calming,
Made me wandering my mind back to certain moment,
Where i have been, while listening to those songs,
Trip to Penang And Segamat Johor Prominently .



Smells also can make us remembered back
Where we have been, what are we doing on that time,
I still 'remember' the smell of my standard 1 class room
Which i hated before but missing now :)


Not Forgetting, Past hurtful moment,
Past stupid feeling, past idiot moment,
Past hurtful fight, Past soul mate
Past Sad moment together,


I'm not Wishing to turn back time,
so that i can be there again,
But i wish i can, remember back, those moment vividly,
thus not condemning myself to repeating the same mistakes
over and over again :)

Hence appreciating the God's Unique gift,
The Memory :)

Past Is Past, The Future Is There



Well, we got a pool of judges in our life
despite their 'divine ability' to judge person
they are still willingly entertain you without fail
Though you knew what's in their heart.

yeah, people want someone that have certain criteria
to be liked or to like, to be friend or fiend
but, not everything appear prominently to human's eyes
is the same appear discreetly to the God's Eyes



If Past Mistakes Have made you Judged By A Person Blindly,
However Small it is, though it's Unfair,
like u won't Ever be good ever,
Just Take It and Go :)
Take And Go

Because releasing knife from a stabbed heart,
Just do more damage than it stays there
Have a Big Heart with many scars is better,
Than a small heart yet Untouched by Sadness